Well, seems finally my walls crumbled and it’s time. Funny, I’ve seen those words before and now they haunt me.. “It’s time”. However, this time, it’s not something I look forward to in a sense. It’s something I’ve been waiting for, just like last time I saw those words… but now, it’s ominous. It’s morbid, dark. The shadows have truly grasped me once and for all, and I fear it’s time to bid a farewell.
Thank you to anyone who followed me, and liked anything I had to say. I hope I provided some sort of comfort for you, and perhaps shed light on things you may have only seen through a shroud of darkness. I described the other day how I’ve felt my whole life. And I rather liked that the anger and pain lately has fed my mind enough to express it. It’s as if I’m in a room, a little box room, with hundreds of shackles around my body and chained to the walls. Each shackle is slowly rusting and snapping, falling to the floor with a loud clank that sounds now as music to my ears. Before, I was afraid. But I welcome these noises of fear and regret, of lingering in the past.
Nothing has ever been mine, and I know a lot of people can relate. Anything that ever made me happy disappeared quicker than I gained it, and each time it’s shot me further and further down into this moment of goodbye. No drug, no drink, no soul could ever change my mind, and I choose to not turn to any of these things to solve the issue anyways. That issue is myself. And I was born in this body and mind, and I have the power to destroy them both upon my choosing moment. Who I am… well, I don’t know much anymore. I thought I knew. I built a lot to only have it broken and hammered down into dirt and dust.
Anyways, enough ranting. I’ve said what I have to say, and will end it once more with farewell. Let the terrors of the past remain there, unspoken, and unheard, for forever more. Peace be with you all. :)
-This blog is now ended, with everything it represented.-